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But if your heart's not in it, for real.
Please dont try to fake what you dont feel.
If love's already gone,
Its not fair to lead me on.
Cause, i would give the whole world, for you.
Anything you'd ask of me, i'll do.
But i wont ask you to say,
I'd rather walk away.
If your heart's not in it.
I've moved. Drop me a message/email/msn whatever if you want to know where i've moved to. :D
Bad things happen at the most crucial time.
I was supposed to email some data to my hockey teacher,
and it was a must that i sent it over like last night because the deadline is today (She has given me 2 weeks to do it, hehe)
And then the internet connection at home died on me.
But nevermind!
Cos i went over to girlfriend's house and did my work there.
The hotmail server was busy,
we had to wait and wait for access to my email.
And we had so much fun laughing and gossiping abt cedarpeople lah.
Its good that girlfriend was from cedar!
You know baby, everything was so good in the day.
I'm sorry for being such a bitch at night. =(
But you know i love you all the same.
You look damn good in yr topman shirt yesterday :D
Money seeds anyone?
Haha, i wonder how many times i've asked this already.
I'm planning to get Gucci spects.
Birthday's in exactly one week's time btw! Hawhaw
Okay i've training today. =(
Re-edited
You told me,
I dont want to be just your brother.
And then, this little tinge of sweetness surfaced and filled every corner of my heart.
I felt blessed, very blessed.
We've taken on different paths,
We've changed to become unknown people to each other.
Times have changed, we have changed.
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I see team spirit building up;
We train cry scream yell drink sing,
We endure as a team.
Nobody gave up on the team, hence we shouldnt give up on anyone.
We endure the endless hours under the sun,
We endure the aching backs and the flying balls,
We endure the runs that we have to do before and after trainings.
We endure as a team.
On a lighter note, we've having so much fun WITHOUT Kaifong! Hawhaw
I've yet to get hold of my Season 3!
I introduced the show to my sister Joleen who introduced the show to her friend Joanne(sp?)
and now that Joanne is done with Season 3 alr.
I'm going to bite, seriously.
Baby, where's my Season 3!
Anw, after training yesterday we went to get some drinks and sat down and talked.
As usual, we drifted unconsciously to our favourite, ghosts stories.
We shared abt ghosts in serangoon gardens(Yes, unfortunately for me), ghosts back in Cedar, at camps.
And all of us ended up being freaked out and afraid to go home alone.
It was really funny to see the girls giving a call back home to ask whoever available to fetch them from the bustop.
Nonetheless, i still want to hear many more ghost stories. :D
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We found each other, hoping to heal our broken hearts.
She needs to heal a broken heart too, someone said.
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I dont see why i should post an entire entry abt you.
Anw, take some fucking responsibility of you fucking life.
You're seriously getting on our nerves,
because we fucking got told off because of you and yr fucking actions.
I used to have this girlfriend,
i thought she meant the world to me.
I thought she was something i couldnt let go off.
I was young, naive, and immature.
And then came the second,
she was the cutest thing i ever set my eyes upon.
She, was somewhat like a lover and also a best friend.
She painstakingly took care of me.
As gentle as a lamb, i fell for her at first sight.
People come and go.
Fuck you Raerae, stop being an emo bitch.
I'm gay, take it or leave it.
Thirteen, fullstop.
Tomorrow marks the end of my course of Project Work.
I'm definitely going to miss working with my group mates.
All the wonderful times we spend together.(:
Fuck the world, like what is it coming to?
Fuck you and yr fucking group of irksome friends.
Fuck your fucking girlfriend who's a major slut that the entire school depises.
As you can see, this entry is dumb because i'm having a bitch fit.
My girlfriend's in the bathroom bathing and its been eons,
now i'm going in to check on her. :D
Hahaha, i made that up.
I dont mind bathing with Shane though.
Speaking of which, my classmate TzeYuen had a great time watching L Word today.
Okay i've got the fuck urge to cut my hair,
as short as Jenny's.
I know why i'm having a bitch fit lah,
my girlfriend's ignoring me.
And i must mention this!
AhYan is so disgusting,
she kissed me!
Rahhhh.
Superficial bunch of fags who lick people's ass just to gain popularity,
or what they so call, fame, in school.
And, they perceive that its so cool knowing a senior,
or being together with a senior,
that they walk around school with their noses high in the air.
Childish deception, from my point of view.
Such fags totally turn me off.
You aint that big baby(s),
i'll kick yr ass one day.
Seriously, you're the one behind all these,
making people lick yr ass and follow that irksome, self-denial path of yours.
Fuck you, bastard.
L Word's right, the lesbian network is pretty connected.
And lesbians, do share chicks. Hawhaw
Caught The Guardian yesterday,
its a pretty good show and it was so touching at the end.
But baby told me the story before,
(which, at that point in time i didnt plan to catch the show)
Rah, i know some parts of the movie and i knew the ending! =(
Digressing, i want to tattoo a 2 on my back.
Catch The Guardian to find out why, :D
I'm supposed to be in school now but apparently i decided to give it a miss.
Bad flu, cited the reason for absence.
Ha, but i'll be going back school for training later.
I hope my teacher wont see my training or she'll know i lied!
Digressing, my coach's coming back today.
I reckon he'll give us hell.
Oh yes, i'm deeper and deeper into you silly.
PS. Oh fuck you fuck you fuck you, cheryl or whatever your fucking name is you fucking slut!
Chinese As are over, what a relief.
I shant go into the details,
i felt that it was a pretty bad paper because i made so many mistakes alr.
And, just in case you didnt know,
Majority of the MCQs are worth 4 marks each.
I made alot of mistakes alr =(
Met up with Manel and Arica babies on Thursday and we had a great time catching up, bitching and stuff.
Those were the good old days lah. :D
I'm so fucking drained!
Reached home at twelve plus yesterday night with Girlfriend M.
Coffee bean closes at around twelve plus, blah.
And then i was on the phone with honey.
Then i had training today which was so bad.
After training, i went to teach Math.
I'm so fucking drained lah.
Yay i'll be going out with Sun tomorrow. :D
Rachel / Rae
24th nov 1989
raeraerae_@hotmail.com
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